Sunday, May 03, 2009

hahahahaaa... yup i have changed a new skin.. that means i have not blogged in a loooong time and needs a new look to my blog.. wahahahaa......

Oh well... let me say it plainly... working sucks...hahahahah.... or maybe it's just me... oops... I guess i am at a stage in my life.. that i wan things to be simple.. i probably wanna settle down.. and look what at the things i should have treasured in my life... i miss hall... i miss my friends...i miss my life....things just feels different after i started to work.... it has been almost a year since i have started working... and i feel like i have lost part of myself... my energy... my smile... this is not a goood sign. seems like i dun even like myself anymore. Is tat how we should feel when i start working? Is that how i am going to feel for the rest of my life?

Now, the simplest things makes me happy... even if it is temporary.... if its so easy to make me happy.. does it mean that i am not happy at all? losing things makes me treasure what i had... and sadly i dun even know how i lost it in the first place...

I know i need a change... but to what? will that make me happier? is that really what i want? why do i feel so "caught in the middle"? why can't i find that smile back anymore... where am i?

shooots... a first sian and sad post to start this new skin~~ roar~.. but i still love paul frank.. whaahahaa... cute monkeyS!

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