Thursday, March 02, 2006

Ice cream fest is over.. Yup, last things would be hall diner and culture night for us.. Yup yup.... Oh boy.. Really hope everything will go well and then go back to my studies which I am super lacking in my readings....

That's me passing the YAM ice cream... oooooh... I prefer the vanilla float and the choc chip one~~~hahaa

oh well...
the conversation between kimseng and me have stirred in my mind and set me thinking.... Well, I don't even know myself...Moreover gei kiang try into get into other people's shoes to think how they think.... haha... True... I know that... I am just running away again.. I look as if I was strong enough to face everything but in life I am just running away and always choosing the easiest way out. Loser.
guess I will put in end to whatever this Saturday. I shall see for myself what I was afraid to face. I will then again close that chapter in my life.. Or will I once again open to that chapter and dwell over it.... na... I need to have faith. This time the book will be closed and closed tight. Back to where we were... Nothing more... No more heartaches no more tears... I am changed... I am not that little girl always clinging to you to talk... Passing you little good luck gifts before exams, hoping you will study with me yet talking our way thru and not studying anymore. guess we have both grown. our status went back to square 1.. yup... we are siblings... but we are not more close friends. we chose to gave that up. we are no more confidants... you stop talking even b4 everything ended. when you tried, i closed my heart. Maybe we just at the wrong time wrong move again even though we tot we went a whole round just to end up together. Guess we are both wrong this time round.
these will be the last tears i will shed... and then i will move on... really move on.... with my heart and soul... thanks for everything you have taught me... now.. no more blaming myself nor you.. i have passed that... hope we get really get waht we want and be contented and happy... hope you enjoy your 20th birthday....

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