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2010-07-09T09:18:00.002+08:00

It has been a while since i blogged.. hahah that usually means a change in skins.. but not this time la... dun have the luxury to look throu the skins...hahahha... unless i come across one and I GOT TO HAVE IT...hahahahh
nothing much these few days.... still loads of work to be done or to be understood... I bummed for 2 weeks without CY..... hahahhaha i finihsed my taiwan scrapbook~ FINALLY.. except for some write ups in the last few locations....and i met up with some old friends...

Convocations are around the corner again... lookin at the photos in facebook make me feel REALLY old...hahahaha 2 years after graduation...2 years into the same job... hahahahah... dun seem that long afterall...hahhahhaa....

All my friends in the other big 3 accounting firms have been promoted to senior with that whopping 1k pay raise.... this is making all of us here THAT depressed... we graduated together~

Oh well.. that will be the story in oct... but i guess i won't be there in oct... made a big life-changing decision. I have decided to go for the CA programme in EY sydney... yes yes... i am complaining about the bond and didn't want this programme at first, but I realise that if i dun take up this offer, i will never push myself to work overseas even if i want to... not the kind who will volunteer to apply to work overseas when i am soo comfortable in singapore.. (not working thou..hahah)

oh well... preparations are on the way.. but i haven received the contract as yet... kinda frustrating.. but i guess I will just have to get use to the pace of life there but also not underestimate them too... hahhhhaa

oh well... batam-hk trip is around the corner~ I know CY have been waiting for this for SOOOOO long... finally ya long break baby~ hahahaha last working day for me... last 3 for me.. JIAYOU~

and all the best for ya interview... really hope you can join me soon!!

Pearls b4 swine again

2010-05-13T13:10:00.002+08:00

yup just read my fav comic during lunch..hahaha... really enjoys it.. hahaha..

oh well... we are all burnt out...

Xia Yi Zhan, Xing Fu

2010-03-23T18:34:00.005+08:00

I just finished another ou xiang ju..下一站，幸福. i would say its not a typical ou xiang ju.. more adult issues.. CY says it's like Qiong Yao Series..hahahaha cry cry cry one..hahahaha but its a really nice...

heart warming.. heart wrenching...nice.... hahahaa it has its happy elements and its touching moments... Love the ice skating scene.. then hero saving damsel in distress scene, court scene, and all scenes with Xiao Le~~~ 米修，米修~
hahahaha..... the music is WONDERFUL.... from 我爱他 by Ding Dang to 我以为 by Pin Guan.... ooooh... emo-ness...hahahahaha love the show... just think the ending is a little abrupt... love the last 2 mintues of the show thou..heeheee...

This series is abit long (21 Epis) as compared to other ou xiang jus... but i think it's definitely worth the time!! super thumbs up :)

2010-02-26T23:44:00.002+08:00

Feeling emo again ... I wanna love like I did in jc.. So selfless.. So forgiving so dumb... But I was indeed happy.., until I tot of returns... Wat I give and get in return ... Wat do I benefit in this?? How can I get more attention? Why do I always have to give in?? Why can I just take a break and get pampered?? These tots protects u.. But it makes you lose the meaning of loving someone.. Love loses it's magic... It's scary.. It makes u tired...that's growing up I guess... U will forget how love and be beautiful in the simplest ways .., haiz....

I am in kl AGAIN

2010-02-08T12:17:00.003+08:00

yup i am in kl AGAIN~ hahah this time for another engagement. quite a rushed engagement. I am losing time cos i am blogging *ooops* Loads of things happened.. i guess they all happened for a reason... It shows how immature i am.. how irresponsible i am.. and how selfish i am... time to grow up Pq....

Work my Camera~

2010-02-04T11:34:00.001+08:00

I think i need to work my camera.. it's becoming like a white elephant...
ok i am going to bring you out everyday~ go go go~~~~

I have been identified~

2010-02-04T11:23:00.002+08:00

I have been identified to be a tax payer.... OMG.... feels so weird.. it's like a ticket to adulthood...hahhaha... Queen and DK told me its about 300+ after their computation... roar~ 300 bucks can buy alot of things leh... like a brand new DSI~ hahhahaha.... *faints* its 1/3 my computer fund lo!! sian sai... its like giving a DSI to the govt.. to queen.. it will be a tiff&co bracelet...hahahaha oh welll.... i will try to look at it later la... in the end still have to pay the bugger one la (DK say i sound like him already).

^$$$^ fly away....

hellos from KL

2010-01-22T12:16:00.003+08:00

hahaha my one and only post from KL. Yups i guess work is fine other than the horrendous Global Analytics which cannot work on my com cos i got QVOD (ooops) and my SRM which i have not finish.... ho ho ho.. i am sooo dead. Anyways..i think i am a very nice auditor to the client but sadly not to the government. I have no idea how to identify wrong things! hahahahaa i look at PY files and they are filled with reclasses, adjustments.... but how come this year i don't really spot any????? I suck as an auditor la.... or maybe i just wasn't taught how to handle that...
oh well....
Anywayz.... i was suppose to think abt my life... but i tought about my report more.. so oh well... guess i will have to wait till after peak to really sit down and think abt wat i wan in life and how i will move on from there.

THIS IS QUARTER LIFE CRISIS!!! hahahahaha.. abt finding ya footing in society, about balancing interest and work.. about passion and money... welcome to adulthood Peiqi!

Going KL

2010-01-15T16:02:00.002+08:00

I will be going KL again for CGG finals. I will take this time to think abt my life.. my relationships.. my goals.... and directions.... not that i have not been tinking.. not that i have alot of time on my hand... but i guess, distance will give me a better picture of wat i want... who i treasure... and where i see myself in the next 5-10 years. budden again, i may not have the time to think at all.. I am lacking the energy to work now.. the motivation to finish all my work... to set deadlines for myself.... groanz....

Randomness

2010-01-13T14:33:00.003+08:00

hahaha i am quite amazed at myself for saying some stuff....hahhha I was talking about some random stuff outta nowhere.. then i said...Life needs randomness. It hits you off the track but at the same time.. it gives you a break... waaaaaaaa.... so philo~~ hhahhaha

koff koff... okok... enough of egoness hahahaaaa

hmmm... i got a dream... a dream of me with a new life.. new things...hahahhaha..
- Light and fast laptop
- DSLR
- Ticket to travel the world
- $$ to spend arnd the world
- Suitcase
- good walking shoes
- All purpose shawl/scarf
- passport
- tiff&co celebration ring to signify my freedom
- phone to keep in contact with my friends
- MP3 player to keep and record my audios

I wanna travel... i wanna watch a live match of baseball.. soccer.. watever.. i wanna try dyeing my hair.. i wanna try having long hair.. i wanna see if i suit permed hair... hahahaaa....

dream on...

New Fav Emo Song

2010-01-13T12:16:00.000+08:00

I got a new EMO song~~

爱不单行

找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人都怕变得沉默
找不到命中注定在一起的人以后
很多人都笑我
一个人过生活
爱
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到
爱情那个枷锁
爱
只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
爱
是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信她

A place called home

2010-01-13T11:11:00.002+08:00

I need to find a place called home... a place where i can be myself... a place i am not forced to make decisions... a place where i can be taken cared for.. a place i don;t have to worry about anything in the world... a place I want to go to after a hard day's of work... a place i can go when i want to cry.. a place i can find comfort....

does it even exist?

2010

2010-01-11T08:15:00.003+08:00

Tot abit any life yesterday. I will leave ey in oct. Promoted or not. Of course it will be great if I did. Haha.. But the problem lies in wats next...it has been troubling me for a long long time already

距离

2010-01-04T11:32:00.001+08:00

Still one of my fav emo songs....
After assessing all my relationships... i sort of have similar problems... so i guess, it's just me.

在距离三公里的位置
我在这里
想像心中的你的呼吸
同样的熄着灯的窗子
你在那里
听不到我呼吸着分离
我走向前你看不见
真的遥远
就连叹息影子听见
也是无言
你走向前我看不见
你的思念
你和我之间
刻着一条界线不曾有改变
保留着三公分的距离
我的眼里
填满着整个我爱的你
坐在同一张四方桌子边
你的眼里
读不到眷着我的讯息
当爱离开之前
能多苦能多深能多甜
距离是你走过我身边

世界最遥远的距离

2010-01-03T00:33:00.001+08:00

世界最遥远的距离就是共同生活的两个人，却感受不到彼此心灵的温度，无法沟通。

happy new year

2010-01-02T23:51:00.002+08:00

It's 2010!
New beginnings, new opportunities, new resolutions, new strengths.
Jiayou.

These 2 weeks has been an emotional rollercoastal. I have heard alot, read alot, spoken alot. I know my answers, i just don't have the guts to face them. So in 2010... i shall find the strength to face them.. at least one by one.

I have to be stronger...

Why do gf/wives love checking bf/husband's phone

2010-01-02T23:48:00.002+08:00

I finally understand why gf/wives wanna check their bf/husband's phone for last calls and smses.

it sucks to know too much
it sucks MORE not to know at all

oh well i guess they are just insecure and wan to know their other half more la...
dun force me...hahaha

Another Sad Story

2009-12-09T14:43:00.001+08:00

Read another sad story online... sad as it is.... its kinda childish... oh well...

Chris' Diary
It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.
I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.
She said, "I miss you."
I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."
She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine.
I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."
Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.
Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"
Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home.
Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.
But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."
We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.
We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.

She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."
With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.
She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."
I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"
I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"
I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.
Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain wouldl go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide. But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years's feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind.
The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence.
I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."
She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her. I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.

She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words.

Cute Song

2009-12-07T19:11:00.001+08:00

Hee.. just heard a nice song from Yuting's laptop:

Plain White T's - 1234
1, 2 .. 1, 2, 3, 4
Give me more lovin’ than I’ve ever had,
Make it all better when I’m feelin’ sad,
Tell me that I’m special even when I know I’m not,
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin’ mad,
I’m so glad I found you
I love bein’ around you.
You make it easy,
It’s easy as 1, 2 .. 1, 2, 3, 4
There’s only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you (I love you) I love you
There’s only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that’s what I’ll do (I love you)
I love you
Give me more lovin’ from the very start,
Piece me back together when I fall apart,
Tell things you never even tell your closest friends
Make it feel good when I hurt so bad,
Best I that I’ve had, I’m so glad I found you
I love bein’ around you.

You make it easy
It’s easy as 1, 2 .. 1, 2, 3, 4
There’s only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you (I love you)
I love you
There’s only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that’s what I’ll do (I love you)
I love you
(I love you) I love you.
(music)
You make it easy, it’s easy as 1, 2 .. 1, 2, 3, 4
There’s only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you (I love you)
I love you
There’s only 1 way 2 say those 3 words and that’s what I’ll do (I love you)
I love you.
(I love you) I love you.
(1, 2, 3, 4) I love you
(I love you) I love you.

Cute song... but some of the online comments say its actually a sad song... budden i was quite happy when i was listening to this... so i say THIS IS A CUTE SONG!! heee...
lalalaaaa

Bored

2009-11-14T20:40:00.002+08:00

I seriously don't wanna work on weekends.. so hmmm i shall declare SAT off~ SERIOUSLY OFF~ hahahaha... no work no work no work~~ hahhaha.... (i can so imagine myself going back to office on a particular sat and work...sian) hhhaha so many pple have left the company. TOO many. Oh well... i dun wanna talk abt work...

Yup.. no work on sat... so I MADE CURRY PUFFS~ i learnt it from a cooking class organised by Nick's company.. Peggy jio us one..haha...this world is totally SMALL.. cos the instructor is KIMSENG's mum!! hahhhahah... so qiao... ANYWAYS... i tried to follow her receipe... but I HAVE NO IDEA WHY I DO NOT HAVE A WEIGHING MACHINE FOR FOOD AT HOME~ so alot of things were prepare via AGAR-ATION hahahaaa... so in the end... my puff skin was too soft (too much water or butter) and my curry was too wet and kinda tasteless.. can't find that blardie A1 sauce thingy.... hahahaha... had a hard time frying them but nevertheless... I MADE CURRY PUFFS~ hahhahahaha... yup yup.. not VERY tasty so i will work harder next time~ and when i get the WEIGHING MACHINE then i will know what went wrong... roar!!!!! so Attempt 1 Curry Puff - FAILED~ hahahah... i very strick one..

My Future Job

2009-11-12T15:37:00.000+08:00

Here are Peiqi’s expectations:
I will have my own desk
I do not have to work late EVERYDAY (can go home at abt 6pm usually)
Acceptable Pay (more than what I have currently)
No working on weekends
Good benefits (If there are CSR programmes, better)
Interesting Job (Varying job scope – rotation is fine)
Not in the far corners of Singapore

I guess...I dun understand anything at all

2009-11-11T11:21:00.000+08:00

I understand love cannot be compared
I understand how it feels like to be loved
I understand how it feels to be left alone
I understand how it feels to be in the rain alone
I understand how it feels when I cannot cry
I understand how it feels when I need to hide
I understand loneliness
But I guess I still don’t understand love.

power

2009-10-24T11:21:00.001+08:00

I can never be angry at you for long... as long as you are here.... I can cry i grumble and even have very negative thoughts... but once you make me laugh.. it all disappears... that's the power you have over me...

Danger behind Wheels

2009-10-15T11:08:00.002+08:00

I get to use the car for 1 week~~~ woooots~ hahhahaha and then I proved my own point... Auditors should just get weekend cars.... hahahhaha cos auditors are usually very kiamsiap.. they will consider routes... ERP..parking charges... milage to claim blah blah.... since the client is willing to pay for our cab fares.... why drive???? hahhaha... so the only time i use the car is after 8pm on weekdays and during the weekends... SEEEEEE... perfect timing for weekend car... but i totally hate the red number plate... sadly... hhahahaha...

It has been 3 years since i have driven the car... I only touch the car when i help me mum park the car... hahhaa... so i guess i will be a driver who drives poorer than noobie P-platers... hahaaha cos at least they have practice. PLEASE DUN HONK ME WHEN YOU SEE ME DRIVING... i totally cannot feel the sense of distance around the car and i tend on drive on the right side of the lane... so please pardon me. hahahaha

WTH

2009-10-07T23:28:00.001+08:00

ok... i got a major headache.... a stinkyily wrapped wrist and sleep deficient eyes......wat the hell am i doing?? hahahahaaa...ok.....2more days to weekends...but also got lotsa things in the weekends...roar~~~~~

evil husband~

2009-10-06T23:06:00.002+08:00

just read a story about a woman committing suicide after a miscarriage... the reason was not the miscarriage but her husband blaming her for the miscarriage... i think she wither had a fall or was not very careful then got miscarriage... the husband scolded her for being so careless.. then i think her hormones also abit imbalanced one... kept reproaching herself... then in the end she committed suicide. WTH~ the husband is a jerk la.... be thankful that at least your wife is alright lo. It's sad to lose a baby.. feel sad for the miscarriage too but i am sure his wife did not intentionally lose it one lo...haiz... oh well.. damn sad that this kinda guy exist la... now no kid no wife.. happy liao lo.... poor family..

H2

2009-10-03T23:55:00.003+08:00

I have finished the series for H2.. its originally a comic series on baseball... nice story... sweet high school feelings and great passion for baseball... makes me fall in love with softball all over again... think singapore not very into that sport... maybe i am wrong.. wahahaa. suaku.... but baseball/softball is not a regular sport cos it need quite a lot of pple to play and the equipment are quite expensive... a glove cost abt 70+ and a bat about 100 plus i think... more better ones should be much more expensive..somemore still got boots and uniform... not like a basketball.. 50 bucks can get a good ball already hahaaaa.. back to the series.. yup.. only 11 episodes... nice.. great storyline... i totally KO-ed when Hikari's mum died.. haiz.. soooo sad... i will give this series a MUST WATCH if you like softball or like sports... feels damn refreshing... can't wait to play softball... too bad we dun have time machines... hahaaa...

Silver

2009-09-20T09:16:00.002+08:00

*groans* We lost.... didn't manage to retain our softball title... haiz. But we had fun la :) thanks thanks~~ now i am super motivated to buy glove and prac liao.. just cannot train batting.. sian.. any ideas?? Qiao'e say can join some clubs or groups... i not that good leh... any lobangs?? Really dunno how the team will be like next year.. with the situation in EY now... lotsa unknowns and uncertainty...feels damn unsettling.. damn jialat.. worst hit ever i think.... i dunno la.. i just hope this team can stay together.. it's REALLY fun playing softball with you all

EMo Songs

2009-09-17T09:24:00.002+08:00

Haaaaiz.... Qiao'e recommended haoting.com....there can randomly listen to songs, so cool..heee... and randomly i came over quite a few emo songs... all on breakups and letting go... Can pple really be so wei da... to REALLY let go of the one you love just to see her happy without wanting anything more? I am sorry... i learnt life probably a little harder... i believe pple are born selfish...just look at kids... how many can really share? I dunno... i tried being selfless and i got myself in a damn chui state... maybe being selfish is easier.. and still accepted... hmmmmmm.. ok la... better go back to work liao

Zhou Bi Chang

2009-09-15T20:57:00.002+08:00

Ho ho hooo... i almost forgot i got a blog~~ haahha... sorrrrry.... hahaha.... Tough Job... luckily got haoting.com with me~ hahaha... heard new songs from Zhou Bo Chang... think her image is chui.... not that mine is damn good anyways...BUT her songs are niceeeeeeeeee.... ok i shall post her album photo...

Greetings from E71

2009-09-07T18:55:00.002+08:00

wahahahahaha i am blogging from my hp! Wahahahaa glad that its qwerty keypad... But not sooo fang bian when scrolling la.... Hahahah but cos i dun have a duel sim phone... I can't call when i am using this sim (mobile broadband sim) in my phone.... Oh well.... Can watch youtube thou! My screen quite big so can even watch naruto.. Just sad that i forgot to bring my headphone hahahaa but its funnnnn okok... Shall blog more on the road next time...soo coooool...

We went sentosa to play badminton??

2009-07-31T17:17:00.003+08:00

Wahahahaaaa.. yup itis Sentosa~~~ and why are we not in Bikinis or singlets (in my case)... cos WE WERE SUPPOSE TO BE PLAYING BADMINTON~~~~ roarrrrr....... kanna "aeroplane-ed" by PA and sports council~~ roar... at least PA still refunds you with 2X time slot.... sport council say will refund me by cheque.. until now a single call also duno have... *angry* Binbin say i am the "weak link" a.k.a the sway sai one... haiyoooooo.... why are we not destined to play badminton~~~~~ sian sai

One year in EY

2009-07-31T16:58:00.003+08:00

Yups... it has been a year.. this is damn scary..... i have worked for a year~~ omg.... I have been working, going home and then work again... it became so routine i forgot the time..... wahahahaaa... really appreciate those jobs which let you off on time... wahahaha... it will be training next week... hopefully not too bad baaaaa...... horrid feedback from others who have attended it already... sian..... nvm.. look forward to kukup and thailand~~~~~~

Pearls b4 swine

2009-06-28T18:10:00.001+08:00

wahahahaha... yes yes i love this comic... other than baby blues.. wahahahaa.. so here's another clip... wahah

lalalalaaaa......... my energy boosters~ yeah

3 countries in 12 days~

2009-06-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

YAY~ I am on LEAVE~~~ finally... and haiz... it's the end of my leave liao~ *dread...* oh well, I have tried to make the best outta my leave liao... I went 3 countries is 12 days~~~ to vietnam then to taiwan and lastly malaysia (JB) wahhahahahaaa.......yup.... spent lotsa money... so please dun ask me to go anywhere expensive for the next few months.. peiqi is broke.....roars~

I didn't really rest and relax thou.. wahaha our trips was full of sight seeing... hiking... walking... eating... haggling...hahahhah.... but it was fun~ we saw interesting things at the hot springs... we saw cool stuff at the night markets (what's pasar malam compared to these~) we ate alot of weird food... boar meat.. duck blood thingys....some innards... some weird fish etc etc.... all in alll..... it's a great experience~ will be posting some photos soon... once i upload it on my lappy.. wahaha....

nice vacation... feels like a super loooong weekend... i dun really wanna go back and work...... *pouts*...... realities of life.... without work, i will not treasure my free time soooo much~

Oh well, better start packing for work already.... i foresee ALOT of things waiting for me to do.... haiz.....

Simple things in life

2009-05-22T15:39:00.001+08:00

Yup... here are some things in my life that makes work BEARABLE... yup.. that's how bad it can be..... maybe it doesn't apply to everyone.. but oh well:

1) Getting cab claims
2) Getting more change from the taxi uncle (cos he is so nice to round down the fares)
3) Drinking teh-bing
4) Talking to my "sistas" and "aunties" on msn
5) Leaving work at 630pm~ woahhhhh....
6) Lunch~
7) Faster com speed (I hate it when excel hangs)
8) Getting new stationery
9) Fridays~saturdays~sundays~
10) Buying new clothes (not on-impulse ones)
11) Getting a call from CY
12) Getting internet connection at client's office!
13) Watching TV (i dun really watch anything now)
14) Getting videos (House, Heroes, reality shows) from friends
15) watching brainless teen flicks
16) Seeing "Opened" shops after work
17) Wii-ing
18) DS-ing
19) Finding nice songs on radio, albums etc
20) getting a seat on the bus/mrt
21) Seeing happy collegues + they are not happy becos they have thrown me all their work

there... i have tried my test to squeeze out as many as possible...hahahahaha.....

oh man...

2009-05-03T01:53:00.001+08:00

life... after some time

2009-05-03T01:39:00.002+08:00

hahahahaaa... yup i have changed a new skin.. that means i have not blogged in a loooong time and needs a new look to my blog.. wahahahaa......

Oh well... let me say it plainly... working sucks...hahahahah.... or maybe it's just me... oops... I guess i am at a stage in my life.. that i wan things to be simple.. i probably wanna settle down.. and look what at the things i should have treasured in my life... i miss hall... i miss my friends...i miss my life....things just feels different after i started to work.... it has been almost a year since i have started working... and i feel like i have lost part of myself... my energy... my smile... this is not a goood sign. seems like i dun even like myself anymore. Is tat how we should feel when i start working? Is that how i am going to feel for the rest of my life?

Now, the simplest things makes me happy... even if it is temporary.... if its so easy to make me happy.. does it mean that i am not happy at all? losing things makes me treasure what i had... and sadly i dun even know how i lost it in the first place...

I know i need a change... but to what? will that make me happier? is that really what i want? why do i feel so "caught in the middle"? why can't i find that smile back anymore... where am i?

shooots... a first sian and sad post to start this new skin~~ roar~.. but i still love paul frank.. whaahahaa... cute monkeyS!

fun @ work

2009-01-24T17:40:00.001+08:00

when the only fun part of work is getting documents from the client, testing the coffee machine at the client's pantry.... waiting for pple to be on msn and irritating them and check facebook every hour for updates.....hahahhaaa.... oh well =X

路

2009-01-22T11:26:00.002+08:00

hmmmm..... i guess when i reach a cross road i have these few choices:

1) stay in audit (maybe part time degree) then go commercial
2) Full time student (Law)
3) Teach (Nie)

2009-01-16T10:10:00.002+08:00

Have you ever thought... how can 2 hearts be together? when you hold hands... your hearts will be separated by his/your body... if you hug, even when your bodies touch but the hearts don't.... i guess physically and emotionally there will always be a distance... and probably that's the little dark room in your heart where you want to be alone... and never want anyone to go in..... everyone has that room.... even those deeply in love... that's the place you go when you are all alone at night.. awake and deep in thoughts.....reflecting, fighting and also healing....

打击

2009-01-15T16:34:00.003+08:00

Yups...... major 打击... my client just said i 发福！ I know she means no harm... but i am still sad... cos it's not even new year~ and i like my size when i just came back from europe. I felt like i could wear ANYTHING... oh well... it's just self confidence again... garrrr..........

No more chips
No more 雪饼
No more supper
No more Soft drinks
No more fast food
No more chocolates
No more choco pies
No more office biscuits
(note that i didn't say no more teh bing...hahahahaha i know.. i shall choose teh-o bing more)..hahaha

more blading
more tennis
more entusiasm in finding a sport to learn
more water (hydration and detox)
more fruits
more sun
more walking (like shopping??)

hahahaaa fine i am just getting mad

爱过比没有爱过的好吗?

2009-01-13T11:54:00.008+08:00

In the past, i used to go Kokoro.com.tw to watch some emo taiwan love stories... the music is niceee and lets you think about life and love.... went back today... i guess most of the videos are not available liao... but the "MV" is still around.. so i shall try to attach a few..heee..

Note: Click the bottom "O" so see it in new window

爱的太浅不仔细, 虽然尝到了爱情的甜蜜却不够刻骨铭心很难领悟爱情的真谛这样的爱情也只能作为彼此心灵短暂的停留地

爱的太深不精致, 在饱尝了爱情带来的酸甜苦辣之后也就渐渐忘记了爱情本来的含义. 这样的爱情就象是空气需要它呼吸它却感觉不到它.

渴望爱情, 向往爱情同时也惧怕爱情因为它太甜美, 太诱人, 太脆弱. 就象是盛夏的玫瑰, 每当走进芳香怡人, 总叫人忍不住想去摘, 可往往会被刺扎到. 即便如此去还是会赞美它的美丽.

爱情就如玫瑰, 来的时候清新诱人, 叫人忍不住想要拥有, 拥有之后的甜蜜, 幸福会叫人想忘记了现实的存在. 而往往当你爱到最真切的时候 ,就会有这样那样林林总总的事情发生, 你有和你并肩进退的人吗? 有是最好, 但太多的时候人性的自身就已经毁灭了爱情.

遗失的你会怎么样? 把自己藏起来? 舔着伤口痛并回忆着等伤口结疤你还是会为了下一段的爱情而迷失自己? 并不是你自己不懂得保护自己,而是它永远都是来的那么突然, 那么新奇叫人难以抗拒.

人的一生会错过很多的人, 很多的事. 有的是不经意的插身而过, 有的是无意识中放了手, 有的是痛苦之下的不得已, 有的则是太过偏执的结果. 不过, 归根结底还是爱过了. 即使结局并不一定圆满过程可能充满坎坷, 但也比没有爱过的好. 至少, 你不会留这遗憾在下半生里品尝, 错过的爱通常也是爱的过错.

有的人因为太爱对方而失去自己, 有些人则因为太爱自己而失去对方. 而你又会是怎样的一个你呢? 你会镇守你的爱情吗?

暧昧

2009-01-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

曖昧

曖昧讓人受盡委屈　
找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進　何時該放棄
連擁抱都沒有勇氣

只能陪你到這裡　
畢竟有些事不可以
超過了友情　
還不到愛情
遠方就要下雨的風景
到底該不該哭泣　
想太多是我還是你
我很不服氣　

也開始懷疑
眼前的人　
是不是同一个真实的你

曖昧讓人受盡委屈　
找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進　何時該放棄
連擁抱都沒有勇氣

曖昧讓人變得貪心　
直到等待失去意義
無奈我和你　
寫不出結局
放遺憾的美麗　
停在這裡

- 杨丞琳

I miss teaching

2009-01-06T18:05:00.002+08:00

Awww... yes... dhs is back in tanjong rhu~~~ no more running for buses to Bouna Vista....hahaha... visiting the school and the students make me think of my time as a relief teacher..... it was enjoyable... from getting nervous before class to getting to know my students... supporting them for their interclass.... it was fun.... makes me wanna consider it as a career.. cos it is like in the comfort zone... things are simpler.... things CAN BE simple... and its the simple things that can make one happy... innocently... the human touch i guess. hai.... but for now... back to reality... back to my 1st peak...haha

2008-12-27T11:03:00.002+08:00

finally have some time to blog... hahha eventful week so far.... phew.... and another year is gonna pass..... 2009 will be approaching... the year i will turn 23.. this is becoming quite scary..... hahah almost 1/4 life crisis liao...hahahahhahha.... oh well... work life has been very different from what i have expected... not as glamourous...hahaahha.... like walking down shenton way with wind in your hair looking all professsional....hahha in the end it's just brisk walking and chui-ness especially in the eyes...hahahaha oh well... Singapore Flyer.... took it b4 it stopped.... at least i have the chance la.... dunno when will it be operational again.... the biggest flyer in the world as of now... b ut spoilt 4 times in a mere 10 months.... hai scary.... the engineers better solve the problems oince and for all.....

darkness

2008-11-24T17:14:00.002+08:00

i see darkness everywhere.... i am glad i am still in light... for me to know what darkness is.... but it is alluring.... curiosity burns..... and i might just want to venture into it.... but once the darkness engulfs me... i will be just like you.....

i hate myself

2008-11-24T13:29:00.000+08:00

yes i let it happen again.. and this time i am not drunk....

goodbye ham ham

2008-11-16T11:51:00.003+08:00

yes... her time is up..... her old shrivelled body lay lifelessly in her little cage.... my dear ham ham... it has been 3 years... thanks for accompanying me through my uni life.... and also accompany through the initial stages of my working life.... you taught me how smile innocently again....thank you.... i know i am not a very good owner.... but i hope you have had a good life... i am sorry i didn't get you a partner (after you ate your friend) oops.... i will always remember you... and i will miss you dearly...

when it rains...

2008-11-13T16:48:00.003+08:00

was listening to some "old" songs..... those i used to emo over...haha.... oh well..... it has been a rollercoaster.....
many things have changed, and i know pple are one of them....time is really a magical thing.... it can actually make something that i never dreamt possible seems so realisable... hmmm...

rain...i feel that it has a cleansing element to it.... standing alone in the rain, standing in the rain with someone.... it has different effects to the heart.... no matter who the other party is....
rain will allow oneself to BE oneself.... as rain itself will help create that wall that veils...
that muffles... tears....cries... and even pain..... i know it all....cos i stood there...alone....

湿红的眼眶里
装满忧郁
默默的聆听
窗外这场大雨
下个不停
伞下还有你的痕迹
勉强撑过这场雨
我却没有更多勇气
坚强过这一个雨季
单薄的伞下那是多么孤寂
听雨的声音
像悲伤的歌曲
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂
我陪雨哭泣
雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反覆唱著熟悉旋律

用悲伤的心情
听雨的声音
仿佛谁在哭泣
倾盆大雨淋湿我的爱情
雨模糊记忆
我忘记了冷静
是经历艰辛才能走到如今
这漫长的路还有多少泥泞

还没有晾乾的外衣
闷在寂寞的房里
面对明天沉重的心
悬挂著伤感的水滴
你我的爱似乎等不到天晴

听雨的声音
是难过的心情
我的泪飘进冷冷的雨里
雨何时才停
伤何时能痊愈
而我何时才能不再想你
积雨的感情终究还是分离

下著雨的天气
爱消失的气息
想念你的心情
我淋著雨
听雨的声音
像悲伤的歌曲
滂沱大雨竟如此的孤寂

我陪雨哭泣
雨却还不肯停
寂寞的人才懂雨的心情
雨反覆唱著熟悉旋律
用悲伤的心情听雨的声音
仿佛谁在哭泣
倾盆大雨淋湿
雨模糊记忆
我忘记了冷静
是经历艰辛才能走到如今
这漫长的路还有多少泥泞

i am determined to learn more cantonese~ arghhhhh...hahhahaaha

EY Dnd

2008-11-04T11:27:00.003+08:00

李圣杰-擦肩而过

放飞心情
我爱着谁爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我说
你已经知道怎么做
你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说
要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说
要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

hahahaha yep... we just had our EY dnd...back to school posted my photos on facebook liao..hahaha omg i am just amazed i could still wear my dhs uniform.. but sadly i broke most of the school rules liao... like tugging out more than 3 finger, fold skirt, wear ankle socks, wear watch bigger than 5o cent coin, put makeup, wear more than a pair of earrings and my schoolbag is red...etc etc... ooops.... hahahaaa... it was fun la... too bad my department never win the performance... oh well... we become friends through this event... it was all worth it liao...haha allalalaaaaa......... anyway the song above was sang by willie, a guy in my department... nice performance... i think it melted loads of girls' hearts..haahaha.... it was a fun night la~ too bad we have to go back to work liao...*argh*

WOOTS~

2008-10-22T10:50:00.002+08:00

I LOVE BLADING~ and i love my blades.... i used to think they are a bit ex... but it's alllll worth it.... but sadly i dun really know how to take care of them..... hahhaha blading is sooooo fun....haahha although i dunno how to stop properly...hahahha... i will take a looong time or i need to find a pole or tree to hug...hahahha.. oh welll...... i still love blading....

blading more now cos it's my only form of exercise... take the chance to tan also...hahaaha.. budden it's lower body and tummy training... i dun wan bye bye flaps... hahahaha so i need to think of something for my upperbody...hahhahha no.. peiqi is NOT dicipline enough to go gym... hahaaaa.....

lalalaaaa... looking forward to blading this weekend again~~~~

AUDIT is NOT All You Do Is Tick

2008-10-20T15:16:00.002+08:00

Arghhhhh.... i think being in Audit will make me lose all my friends :(!!
hai.... all the uncertainty in my schedule, all the dinner dates i have to forgo.... and all the apologies..... hai.... feels HORRIBLE~ hai... i dunno... i miss them.... with them, i feel like ME.... now like abit chui.....hai......

i need to find myself
i need to understand myself more
i need to know what i want
i need to know what i like
i need to know who i am........

sad love story

2008-10-15T11:25:00.002+08:00

was reading tis on the web.. kinda sad.. but a typical love tragedy...

The Hardest Thing to Say

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased them and beat them up. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though. We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together.
I would tell him all my secrets. He was very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything. In school we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kinda thing that I was feeling.
All through high school and even through graduation we're always together and of course I thought of it as being friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well, that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talking about what I was going to do and what he was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dream was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him.
I went home hurting because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and told myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt. All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After graduation he got a job in New York, I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad to see him go. I was sad also because I didn't tell him how I felt. But I couldn't let him know now that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as I hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt hurt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart.
Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished. One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him, I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness tears inside of me.
I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go on with my life. As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said: "meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things". I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore.
Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this, I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problem and his divorce. I fell in love again with him. When it came time for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.
One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just forgot about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again, I was broken-hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache. Asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him?
I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was always unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was a diary. It was a diary that of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California. As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written.
The diary was started with the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken-hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times, but was too afraid to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. He said he imagined it was our wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me. Finally, the diary ended when it said, "today I will tell her I love her". It was the dayhe was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.

If you love someone, don't wait till tomorrow to tell him/her. Maybe that next day will never come at all.

stopping time

2008-10-02T17:09:00.002+08:00

yes... just got my 2nd paycheck which meant i have been working for 2 months already...... my gosh... time really flies.. even when i am not doing much everyday~~ but as wei ee says.. we must say WE ARE HAPPY anyways... just in case karma sets in...hahhahahhha.... oh well.....still feel like travelling...taiwan.. korea... japan....hai... i gues now bintan or thailand will also be a lavish thought... yup....

just finish watch dou niu, yao bu yao....

think the storyline is simple... and the tai chi are quite emo.... quite a nice and funny channel for me to take some time off this world and go into their world filled with dreams, passion, love and youth....... shit... now i feeel old.... thinking of how i would react if i were yi sheng xue.... thinking of how i treat my life and how i have squandered my youth... how i could have done things... and how i SHOULD have done things.... would i be the same as i am today??? love a few phrases they mentioned in the begginning of each episode... the bei ai... the wu nai....hai... emo.........

I wanna travel......

2008-09-09T22:38:00.002+08:00

yes... work has been... hmmm.... tiring.... from nothing to do and too much to do...hahhhhaha... why can it moderate?? hahhhahaaaha.... oh well.... have been OT-ing these few days... not cos we are inefficient but the client has not been really helpful... so during office hours we are waiting for doc instead of doing lotsa work... oh well......

working makes me wanna travel...... just taking some time off to relax... oh well.. now i understand why travelling can be soooon fun.... cos i have always took it for granted and hate the jet lag feeling......

Places that i wanna go.... taiwan..japan... korea... US....but given a short trip just to see some sun and have fun.. i will be more than happy.... i miss those days where i have too much time and just wasted the day away slacking~~~~

I Could Not Ask For More

2008-08-30T20:36:00.002+08:00

This is a REALLY nice song... by Edwin McCain... didn't know who he was (suaku) until i saw my brother's wedding montage.... this was the background music... really touching and sweeeet.... awwwwwww.....

I Could Not Ask For More

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face

These are the moments
I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments
I'll remember all my life

I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist

These are the moments
I know all I need is this

I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I have's come true
And right here in this moment is right where
I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments
I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments
I'll remember all my life

I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more

[Chorus]I could not ask for more than the love you give me'
Coz it's all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
I could not ask for more.......

3rd year

2008-08-11T22:59:00.004+08:00

Wowwww.... it has been 3 years already....heeee.... yup and we are still carrying on the "tradition"..hahha... of having dinner at HOOHA's Cafe... then taking a nice walk at labrador park...heeee.... yup.... happy 3rd aniversary~!! Thank you dear for all your care, understanding and support these 3 years..... and tahhaning all my rubbish and tandrums..... *hugs*!!! heeee.... jiayou!!! hahhahaaa........ Peiqi is sooo happy~ heee
Hee... we had the same things for dinner tooo~~ hahha.. boring... BUT NICE!!!!
My cheesey lagsana and Cy's steak...wooohooo~

heee.... think the quality dropped a little... just a little... but the food is still NICE!!

The Dark Knight

2008-07-30T09:19:00.002+08:00

yes... i have finally watched it~~~ the dark knight... and yes it IS NICE~!!! hahhahaha..... no wonder he's Cy and my fav hero amongst all others.... well 1st of all... he's HUMAN.... unlike others who have supernatural powers.... so he has to use gadgets to help him be special... that's what's interesting!! hahha.. the gadgets~... but then again... he has a lousy attitude... as bruce wayne... batman was like that last time meh??? i tot he was just rich and playboyish..hahahha..... but in dark knight.... love the last part where his emotions show.... great ending.... cos not only does it help in its continuation, it isn't abrupt but makes pple excited and satisfied with this movie :)

Hail Halite~

2008-07-29T10:58:00.004+08:00

Yes yes.... i know halite is just TABLE SALT~~ i know that 3 years ago...hahhhaa... and yes... miraculously, we are still around and with a little water... we CLUMP together~~hahahahaaa..... okok... not funny...hahaha.... and yes... convo ball is over~.... Viva la Vegas if i am not wrong...hahahaa..... it's a night at fullerton ball room... so in a matter of 2 weeks... i wore the sa,e dress and same shoes to the same ballroom but luckily i didn't eat the same kinda food...hahahaha..... yup.... i promise i will not wear this dress in the near future... and looking at how fitting it is now... i dun think i can wear it in the future anyways....hahhaha.., yes.., it's the grey dress again.... desmond HAD to tell me that he saw the dress b4 he saw me.... so probably... putting up that pic was a mistake..heeee...hahah oh well.. DON'T YOU PPLE REWEAR EXPENSIVE DRESSES??? hahhhahaa...... nvm.... i shall gloat on my lucky draw...hahhahaha... although i didn;t get the 1st prize which was a NINTENDO Wii~~~ OMG OMG OMG..., i got 2nd... which was an ipod nano :) 4gb... my very own MP3 player!!! hahahhhha...... yup.... must go find out how to use it...hahhhahhaaaaa and here are the highlights....

Adelene, me and Yuxin
and there you have it.... 3 yrs ago... we left NBS foc with our 5-finger poses.... and 3 years later... we leave NBS with our 5-finger poses AGAIN~ hahahaha just not as young and creative anymore...ooops.. hhahhha

Convocation

2008-07-24T08:23:00.004+08:00

I am part of the graduating class of 2008!! hahaaa... convocation was on the 22nd of july. Exciting day.... haha... went to school REAL early to take photos!!! hahha... but the weather was Horrendously HOT~ so even b4 i had my ceremony... my white shirt was almost transparent from all that perspiration!!! haha.. had to ask my mum to get me another shirt...hahhaha.... oh well... here are the photos~ hahaha... waited 3 hrs just for that 3 sec of fame~ hahhaha.... Me and Lizhen at SDAM

Throwing our mortaboards...hahhaaaa....
My daddy and mummy!!
Cy and meee.... too bad we didn't concovate in the same ceremony~~ and my daddy took this photo... and he said the background got lots of meaning... see the red and yellow sash... its going up and out of the pic.... so that represents our future.... uprising and exciting...hahhhaaaaa... cooool

2008-07-21T20:54:00.003+08:00

Another week at DHS... teaching maths this time.... hahahaa..... scarily.... sec 3s are learning partial fraction now~~ which i need to go dig my JC notes to revise...hahhahaaaa...... quite fun actually...hahahaha.... but Mr Yeo say the class abit pampered so DUN GET BULLIED~~ hahhaha.... i think they are clever la.. just a bit lazy...hahahaha..... anyway.... teaching kinda gives me more time in the day to do things... but then i just sleep thru the afternoon when i go home... hahaaa ooops.... so i play with my hammies everyday... that's prob why they are even fatter now...hahahah.....

ta daaa...... here's Porkie~~ sleeping in a ball..... lump of fat~ hahahhahaa.....

Then we have cookie trying to find out what's the commotion... my camera emits this orange light b4 taking the shot...hahhah

and here is... hmmm porkie i think looking at the size..hahahha and they daily meal of processed food, seeds, and fresh carrots~ hahhaha.. no wonder they are obese now..... hahahaaa

Haiz.. talking about hammies.... i am sooo worried for ham ham now... she's old.... and she's got a huge bump on her month and her right food pouch... the pouch is soooo swollen... i think it may be a tumour... but i dunno how to help her also.... should i let her see the doc.. but what if he tells me to put her to sleep?? noooooo.... i wan ham ham to have a natural and peaceful death..... hai.... almost 3 yrs old le... she has accompanied me thruout my uni life.... and how... she just lazes arnd machiam retired...hahahha....but as cute as even... just slower.... and i really hope the bumps dunget bigger... :(

Back to School~~

2008-07-17T15:33:00.002+08:00

heee.... this time its back to DHS~ alll the way in bouna vista... phew.... was actually teaching a few weeks ago already.... PE... this is my first week in the academic side...hahahha.... teaching science and physics.... phew... i most feared subject...hahaha...luckily Mr Tay passed me the materials some time before class... can prepare...hhahaha.... enjoyed helping out in school.... especially when you knw so many teachers.... and apparently... they only remember how good you were and not how naughty...hahahahaha HOPEFULLY~. i guess the attitude of students are very different now.... somehow... like more.... hmmm... Boring? more academic focused i would say.... hahaaa.... 想当年... hahaha..... we were soooooo playful... all we think is enjoy recess and play games for PE...hahhahahaa.... probably more troublesome too...but in a more manageable way ba.... we usually have 懒学生 not 坏学生.... life was probably more carefree.... oh welll... will definitely continue teaching if i can :)

will i ever regret...?

2008-07-15T20:58:00.002+08:00

just sent my bro and sis in law off to their honeymoon at maldives.....and met with that incident... he was a middle aged man... indian... having high glucose levels and experienced a heart by-pass... he had and acute heart failure.... my bro and sis in law performed CPR and some life saving procedures... even used the Electrical cardioversion if i am not wrong.... even constant pumping of the chest did not work.... more than 15 mins passed... i knew he was not going to make it.... yes... life is so fragile.... my mum said too bad their didn't manage to save him... or else they will be in the papers... but then i didn't think it like that.... i know that if it was me there... if i were a doctor....i would have cried not being able to save him.... seeing this made me feel so small... so helpless... cos i gave that dream up.... i can never be that person... i will just be who i was today... a spectator..... did i make a wrong decision? is it too late? i keep telling myself... i am too emotional and not calm enough to be a doctor.... i always use the excuse of having a phobia in seeing blood... but i know that is not all that true..... i just wanna hide from asking myself the same question again and again.... did i make the right choice? is this what i REALLY want? Is this just a short term passion? then why do i feel so weird.... why do i envy so much.....do i even have what it takes....will i be happier?

All in a day's work....

2008-07-14T21:55:00.004+08:00

hahhaaa..... really experienced 台上一分钟，台下十年功... hahhaaha...... yup.... it was my brother's wedding on 12 July... we had the "kang teh" ceremony in the morning then the church wedding in the afternoon and finally the dinner at fullerton. Phew.... although it was really rushed.... but i only felt the fatigue after the dinner....hahahhaaa.... i am glad everything went on really smoothly.... good job planners~ hahhahaa.... it was elegant, glam, sweet and very classy! yup.... so here are a few photos to show...heee.....

Here's the pageboys and one of the flowergirls...heee Esvan, Matthiew and Emma...hahahaa... so cuuuuteee......

Here's my day dress... too bad i dun have the full body pic.... hahaha... love the green!!!

Here's my night gown...hahhha... you will nva imagine what i did to get the BOOBS out (not much after all that work anyway)...hahhahha.........ooops

and after all the pic.... i didn't get any of the bride and groom.... OOOPS~ hahhaha.. cos i trust that the professional photographer will do a much better job and i will have a very high chance of getting those photos too since it's my bro ma...hahahhaaaa.....

Pancakes....

2008-07-08T22:33:00.002+08:00

After my bad encounter with my poor burnt apple pie..... i still do not know what is wrong with it.... too much butter? too little? egg glazing? oven temp?? why..... why did it burn :( sad...... so now i shall go back to simple stuff.... no more jumping queue...hahahaha.... i had cheese baked cauliflower....hahahhahaha..... cy said nice... but i felt its rather tasteless cos we bought the wrong cheese.... suppose to be chedder but we got mozerella....hahahaha. but oh well..... love meking pancakes... but no one wans to eat them.... a batter makes like TONS of them..... but then again... my receipe seems to give a huge portion....

Pancake Mix
300g plain flour
4 eggs
40g unsalted butter
3 tbsp fine sugar
Can add abit of milk for smoother texture

Whisk all ingredients into batter... can add fruits and reduce sugar

We are going to the zoo zoo zooo... what about you you youuuu.....

2008-07-07T23:34:00.006+08:00

heeee........ i've got a big surprise from cy~ hahahahaa.... he told me to wake up early and wear cooling clothes.... i got so worried... trekking?? hahhahaha.... but as soon as the car went passed mandai... WHAHAHAHAHAHA.... WE ARE GOING TO THE ZOO~~~ hahhhahaha... too bad i wasn't in outing clothes.... i really tot we were going to do some sporty stuff...hahahaahaha..... but the surprise was nice.....hahha... cy got so worried when he didn't see me smile at the sight of the zoo...hahahaha.... i was just sleepy... and you know... sleepy PQ is grumpy PQ...hahahahha.... but soon after breakfast.... I AM A HAPPY GIRL~~~~ hahahaha......sadly.. i didn't bring my camera...... *sighs*.... but at least got my 3.2 mp hp...hahahahahaa........ so here are some of our photos... heee....

Me and dear Ah Meng~

Australian Outback!

The giraffes~ our first couple photo~ thanks to another couple...hahhhahaha the wife asked her husband why didn't he bring her to the zoo when they were dating.... and only after she has their kid...hahhaha.... ooops~

Mr Tortoise~

Tiger vs Hamster~ hahahaaaa.........

We had so much fun there.... i feel YOUNG~~~ hahahhhahaha... lalalaaaa

Phew..

2008-06-30T10:50:00.002+08:00

It has been such a looong time since i blogged... and yuo... sooooo many things happened.... i finished my exams... i went for grad trip... 38 days.... i am back.... i am working as a relief teacher... i am giving tuition... i am desprately looking for a dress to wear to my bro's wedding... i have moved back from hall... i am reorganising my sty... i am looking for corporate wear... i am looking for nice shoes... i got myself a DS lite... but its not with me now :(.... and i am planning on how to deco my grad trip photo album now...hahaha.. 3k plus photos.... what to do???

hahaha.... grad trip was fun... except for some dumb issues...hahhha... definitely not what i expected.... and not really used to the pace of life there...but love pple watching and enjoying a cuppa.... will be posting some photos on facebook but there's just tooooo many...hahahaha....

Macadamia Brownie

2008-06-30T10:26:00.001+08:00

This is my favourite and most successful brownie receipe...hahahhaha.... and i just found this prog to sort of design it like a scrapbook page...heee... so now i can make my own COOKBOOK~ hahahaha.....enjoy~

Make a Smilebox postcard

too bored

2008-03-26T22:00:00.002+08:00

hahah... guess what.. i just did my 1st online purchase~~~ not really confirmed yet... cos the owner didn't get my address and i dun not have a POSB account....hahahaha..... but will wait till she replies...hahha... oppted for a safe bet.... it's kind of baggy top/shirt...hahaha.... will see how it goes before i try online shopping again...hahaha lalalaaaa.... this sem feels so different... i wun say its SUPER slack... but somehow i think my engine just died....hahhha.... no mood to do work... HIGHLY distracted... haiz... what's happening to meeee?????

1..2... FLASH~

2008-03-10T22:08:00.002+08:00

teee HEEEeeee.... i have got my CAMERA~~~~ lalalaaaaa....... heeehee... after my poor sony t1 dieded on me.... stupid screen.... i was once again awed by the sooo chic design of sony t2!! hahahaaa..... love sony designs.. hate the price..... but after soooo much discussion with friends and the seller uncle..... i have decided not to get it partly due to price and the durability of the touch screen... haiz... loved the touch screen... but NO WARRANTY ON SCREEEN even thou it has a 1 yr warranty on the camera.... its like what the hell..... (am i sounding kinda bimbo???) hahahaaa...... nevertheless... i went for a trusted camera.... CANON~ hahaaa.... i wanted the new ixus 80 but the deal wasn't as good during comex... it's new anyways.... i was more of looking out for the specs and goodies (that's the highlight for comex... GOODIES~~) yup... and 80 did not meet my expectations.... then i saw ixus 75..... not very new but i has more or less of what i wanted... extra battery.. loads of memory... love the larger screen.... and the price was alright as cy sadi canon prices do not fluctuate much even for comex..... so yups.....GOT IT~ and now i am happily snapping loads of pictures with it.... still getting used to the functions as it is a little different from my sony.....oh well..... bye bye t2..... hahahaa... now i am all geared up for any event and outing... whahahaaaaaa..... now i am thinking about that photo printer....hahhaaa...ooops.... i am such a gadget freak~~~~

1/2 way thru the week

2008-02-28T11:45:00.004+08:00

omg omg omg omg omg.... its 1/2 way through recess le~~~ and.... i haven really studied 206!!!! i still have PUMA presentation....CESIM presentation... i m so dead....hahaa...still spending time bloggging....waaaaahahaha.... got hooked on to mahjong and big2 recently... due to a "maple"-like online games webbie... VIWAWA~ yups...... can dress up ya dolly for gold earned in the game...hahaaaa..... then just play with pple arnd the world...hahaaa.... here are my wawas i created...hahaaa.... so cute right...hahahaa.... oh well.. i better stash my lappie aside before i try hard to concentrate on my 206~~~~~ jiayou PQ~

last hols

2008-02-26T13:32:00.003+08:00

omg omg omg.... it's recess week already!!!! that means i have 1/2 a sem more to graduation..... kinda scary huh.... my uni life is ending~~ thou it feels like it just started... feeels much faster than JC...hahahaaa....
WE HAVE PROGRESS! in our grad trip to europe...hahha.. after soooo long of procrastinating... we have finally booked our air tickets... now we can't back out!! hahahaaa.... going to frankfurt 1st.... haiz... airtickets are sooo expensive already..... probably a little late so prices hiked.... phew.... now to confirm the itinerary.... the route.... and who to research in which city...hahaa.... kinda excited.... we are going for 5.5 weeks... UBER SCARY~

P.S. I love you

2008-02-22T13:55:00.003+08:00

WOAH~~~~ it has been soooo long since i bloged??? hahaaa.....kinda lazy latey... too busy sleeping and wasting my life away... anyways.... i watched P.S. I love you yesterday..... it's super nice~ but in a very emotioal way.... super sad. it has its funny moments too... although it may seem to be a typical love story about the dead helping the living to get through... but the way the story tries to connect every clue and letter is sooo fascinating.... hahaaa... i knew it was going to be REAL emotional after reading the synopsis.... i told myself not to cry..haha but at the moment where they had jerry's funeral i cannot control liao.... cried through the whole show.... hahha oops.... and ended up have super swollen eyes... hahaaa... i am VERY sure i am not the only one who cried..hee... for girls who intends to go shopping after the movie... try not to.... not a pretty sight after the movie one..haha.. and for guys who wanna watch with ya friends... hmmm... you probably should try getting the dvd and watch alone.... it can be quite a major tear jerker..

Synopsis: Holly Kennedy is beautiful, smart and married to the love of her life - a passionate, funny, and impetuous Irishman named Gerry. So when Gerry's life is taken by an illness, it takes the life out of Holly. The only one who can help her is the person who is no longer there. Nobody knows Holly better than Gerry. So it's a good thing he planned ahead. Before he died, Gerry wrote Holly a series of letters that will guide her, not only through her grief, but in rediscovering herself. The first message arrives on Holly's 30th birthday in the form of a cake, and to her utter shock, a tape recording from Gerry, who proceeds to tell her to get out and "celebrate herself". In the weeks and months that follow, more letters from Gerry are delivered in surprising ways, each sending her on a new adventure and each signing off in the same way; P.S. I Love You. Holly's mother and best friends begin to worry that Gerry's letters are keeping Holly tied to the past, but in fact, each letter is pushing her further into a new future. With Gerry's words as her guide, Holly embarks on a journey of rediscovery in a story about marriage, friendship and how a love so strong can turn the finality of death into a new beginning for life

2008

2008-01-10T01:17:00.000+08:00

1st post in 2008... and finally after 1 month without blogging...hahaaa... oh well...Have been "jian-fei-ing" for the past month due to trainings and sports only to put it all back with christmas, new year and final year syndrome goodies...hahhaaa... Shan Zhen Hai Wei everyday...hhhaaaa....shoots... how am i gonna stay slim still my bro's wedding????? hahaha... he brought it forward somemore... from oct to july....Grrrr..... anyways.... since Acc final years are all slack.... we went to K box today...hahhaaaaa.... on a WED somemore...hahaa... ate sang.... and even met up with cash and his collegue...hahhaaa. quite fun... but halfway through cy and me left the group to go bugis instead of Vivo.... went vivo during the weekend loo...hahaa.... and guess what... I BOUGHT A DRESS!!!! omg omg omg..... it's orange with white embroidary...hahahaaa.... kinda like a sun dress...heeee.... gonna keep it for CNY... hahaa... hope i can still fit into it by then....hahaaa.... my dad complains that i am a dark little ugly girl now... haiz.... hey.... 88.1% of my sun-care survey says that they believe that a tan makes then look healthier k~~~~ hhaha... so i look healthier.. not uglier... but then again... i got WHITE SPOTS on my face... sickening.......
I really understand why pple hate the dentist....haha... the equipments are far too scary and to vibrations made to ya teeth is really untolerable....hahaha. that stupid suction tube makes me soooooo uncomfortable... it keeps choking me.... and the dentist ask me to breath through my nose... like DUH..... but that thing stick near my throat is bugging meeee....hahhaa.... but now it's almost over... my teeth are not blue anymore~~~~ but i have gotta endure through another session with the dentist..... *shivers*....
Suppose to be reading my notes now.... Financial Accounting Theory - Scott.... the hardest readings i have ever read.... both confusing and sleep inducing... Grrrr..... 3 chapters somemore... kill meeee.....

exams overrrr

2007-11-22T23:18:00.000+08:00

haha... yupz.... exams are over and BOTH by modules are CHUI-ed.... bye bye honours~~~ hahahaaaa.... a lil crazy already.... anyway i have had enuff so i snipped off my hair today.. sorry girls... i just can't help it.... oops...haha... got this bob cut with uneven streaks (as emphasized by the hairstylist) hahaaa.... yups.....wanted to take a photo of it.. but... i bathed... that's the end of my hair...hahaa.. cos i can NEVER get the same look back..hahaha.... oh well... had the big 4 application and everytime something comes up like some company called, some company asked for an interview.. i will be the last to know... and when the rest know... they will tell me... and it is SICKENING~ when they keep rattling about how chui cos some company did not call them or if they did, they will laughed at me cos i didn't get any calls... WHATEVER... i will get a job somehow... Grrr.... kiddy....

Incentives

2007-11-11T16:14:00.001+08:00

haha... studying for exams are always so boring~~~~~ sooo i created incentives for myself...hahhaha.... like last time peggy and i used to watch CSI during breaks...haha... now i have these~~~

will play this after every chap i study...hahaa... and at the end of the day i will watch an episode of heroes...hahahaa..... keeps me going~~~ YA Daaaaa........

exams are coming~~

2007-11-06T13:12:00.001+08:00

yeah... exams... in a week... WTH..... and i am just in chap 5 with 17 chaps in the tb..haha... chui-ed... oh well... had some retail therapy with peg and sheryl last sat... got a yellow cute top... love the pockets... like mittens..hahaha..... oh well.... but sadly at night... the flu bug attacked... slept thru the whole weekend.... thanks baby for visiting me.... but you spent more time sleeping here than visiting... my mum even asked if you were sick or did not sleep the whole night (gambling again)...haha... oh well..... haven got the chance to wear my new clothes yet...hahaha...I WANNA GO SHOPPIN AFTER EXAMS..... hahaaa... since cy will not be able to spend time with me at all for the coming hols.... haiz.... double spec le still wan entre...somehow made me regret joining it early... cos i thought final years hard to got in.. shit....grrrrr.... oh well better finish my chap 5.... LONG WAY TO GO~~~ jiayou!!!

Better now...

2007-10-27T04:43:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... guess i am all better now.... had a tiring week going through the emo rollercoaster.... 2nd time seeing my dad cry.... and got really disturbed when he said "看来，我们这一代也要开始排队上路了.." it's like.... WTH~~~~~ haiz...

okok... whatever.... exams are coming soon~~~~and guess what i was doing just a while ago??? i went kster....hahaaa... with 24th...hahaha..... AND... i just felt like i went back to the old school times... the boys kept singing SUPER retro songs from wu bai, beyond, zhang xin zhe, wu si kai.... i was like... diao......... generation gap sia.... until wu yin liang pin came.. WOOOHO~~~~ hahaaa... finally nearer and nearer to my shi dai... the whole night... they didn't play SHE, no Cao ge... no lin yu zhong.. no tank.. no a mei~~~~~~~ hahhaaaa...... so different from my usual kster experiences.... tonight was super low key day.. except for the jackey cheung's duets...hahaaaa...oh well.... time to feel guilty.... STUDY.... but b4 that i will have to complete my big 4 application forms... and retake my formal photo~~~~ UGLY~~~

Wake up...

2007-10-11T16:39:00.000+08:00

Think not disdainfully of death, but look on it with favor; for even death is one of the things that Nature wills - Marcus Aurelius Antoninus,Meditations

The fragility of life never stop to instill fear in me... the fear of losing what's important... I've lost my grandparents, even friends to death... now relatives who has been so close to me and has always been there for me when i was growing up...

I neglected them... i remember i used to say this when i was little, "i will never forget you and will definately come back to visit when i can".... and then, i fail to keep such promises. Death is not like going on a holiday where one day, you will come back... it's permament. WHen i heard that she was gone... i could not register the fact that i will neve be able to see her EVER again.... i still cannot bare to say goodbye... i didn't even dared to see her for one last time....when i held her hands in the hospital and she rocognised me... i thought she was going to be ok.... and just like that she was gone..... i cannot describe how i felt when i got to know about it as i never did expect such things to happen.... all i could do was tell myself that it was just a bad dream and i have to wake up and everything will go away.

Went to her wake last night, suddenly i felt how distant i have become with my family.. and how i took all of them for granted.... to think they will always be there... and now, she's gone....and now i am scared.... i know i can't afford to lose anyone else anymore... my heart will die

tired...

2007-10-04T15:40:00.000+08:00

busy frenzy week~~~~~ with so many tuition slots and the dreadful AA306 quiz..... which i still chui-ed despite spending soooo much time doing practices.... in the end even my CJE 1 which i was soooo proud of is WRONG~~~~~ shit.... wrong goodwill... didn't believe in my own calculations... cos goodwill seems toooo big to be true....*grumbles*...hai.... now.. going to my tuition venue soon then aftetr that i will have to rush back for ministerial forum.... and guess what... i have no form of identification on me~~~ no IC no driving license... WTH~~~~ how to enter~!~~~~ haiz.... after after this forum... i can pretty well relax.... except that i still got a aa306 project to do which requires me to red a 200+pg annual report!!!!! haiz...... who says final year is slack.... haiz... but can rest from tuition le cos my students will finish their SA this week... phew......

Recess..

2007-09-24T09:04:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... been some time since i last blogged.. not too long ago... even thou i know that i was really emo the last time i did.. but i guess these insecurities will not go away but just dragged on to futhre arguements.. oh well..... weather has been disasterous lately... and i am having doubts in having long hair already~hahaaaa... scratching my scalp out someday..hahaa.. *gross*....thinking of getting rui en's hair hahaaaa.... looks cool eh...

hahaaaaa..... not really sure if it will fit me.... but too lazy to style my hair everyday too...haahaaa..... so either i shall just trim and leave it messy or i have to wake up earlier or get a hair dryer...hahaha........ oh well.... i hate these kinda decisions......

HAm ham have beeen REALLY active these few days... keeps running the wheel and climbing all over the cage..hahaaa... oh well.. even thou ham ham is almost 2 yrs old... i just hope it's healthy and enjoying it ever-not changing cage and food selection...hahhaa.... oopsss.....

phew.... so many things to do and i dunno where to start and i have no mood in studying.... hahhaaa projects.... tuition..... arghhh... end yr exams are here... and my students are not prepared.... i worry for them sia.... hahaaaa... but hey... i am the least prepared for myquizzzes tooo~~~ *paniC*.... arghh.... shall get things done!!! dun procrastinate anymore!!!

getting shocked ain't fun

2007-09-19T01:32:00.000+08:00

sometimes... it's better ti get surprised then get shocked.... for me... i prefer to know then to find out myself... thnk it hurts more like that. Think i am childish... but yet i can't stop thinking about it.... haiz..... even tou it's just a photo, but seeing another girl in his arms just ain't fun, even if it's in the past.... i had to see it... had to se it today...hai... i made me think even more about our lives now.... now, yes... we spend time together, but somehow i never felt we are spending time together at all... i don't know who you are anymore... maybe distance makes the heart fonder does have it's reasons... but i am stuck i guess. maybe i should just go back to my little memory box... reflect on myself... i know it's nothing... i know it but somehow... i just can't seem to treat it as if it's really nothing... i would reallly like to be like that.... really... maybe that little girl in me who's starved for attention and affection just wouldn't let it go... probably.. i am just tired....

half empty or half full?

2007-09-05T22:02:00.000+08:00

haaaa.... kinda feel empty nowadays.... for the past 2 years was busy busy busy with hall stuff, foc stuff, school stuff, friends, family...blah blah blah...... and how..... suddenly.... i am sitting in my room and i can afford to play 5 hours or PS2 without having to do anything later on!!!!! hahahahaaaaaa...... feels super shiok in the beginning... felt like i am finally having my deserved rest... but after a while... it kinda feels empty.... kinda feel BORING~ hhaahah... probably i am just like my mum - WORKAHOLIC~ hahaaaaaa.... oh well.... had our elections yesterday... yesterday was a bad day... kinda frustrating since the afternoon BUT... hahaaaaa..... i bought a new bag~~~ mahahaaaaa.... it's kinda weird thou..haha cos it's a HUGEEEEEE sun bag... makes we feel like a beach girl woo hooooo... kinda glued to it when i saw it...hahaa.. but at the same time feels kinda auntie..haha but since CY says it's nice on me too..hahaha it's NICE! haha....
anywayz... i was wear i kinda long top yesterday and shorts underneath..haha... the max and myra could not recognise me from behind... Really so different meh...hahaaa..... prob a more feminine me..hahaaa.. oh well.. too bad i was too busy with election and shopping yesterday..... didn't get to take photos of my outfit..hahaaaa....
haiz... more time on hand doesn't mean more work done anyway... prob did more readings.. but hahaaa.. i still go to class empty-handed....oops...hahaaa..... my hectic life has really shaped me into tresuring even the littliest time on hand... but now.. i can't seem to handle too much time..hahahaa... squandering it away hahaaaaaa.... oh welll...hahaaaa... i guess i should head back to my readings after saying so...hahaaaaa.......

Crabbbsss~~~~

2007-08-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

whahaaaaaa.... what a sinful weekend~~~we went to eat crabs at ang mo kio with chonghwa, myra, max, guo qiang and eugene... wahaha (pick the odd one out... EVILZ~~~) yupz.... we had 2 med and 1 large crab... to me.. they were large and HUMONGOUS~~~~

yup yup......different taste to each.. butter, chilli and fat venicilli in cream sauce.... along with vege, tofu, mantou, and was it pork ribs?? cannot really rememeber... only the crabs... wooooooh

Compare them with the size of the can of greentea...hahaaaa this is our LARGE crab... scary....

here's chonghwa and Myra~~~ heeheee... we were like complianing that we were totally full just after the 1st crab was served...hhahaa..... but for our tastebuds sake... wahahaaaaa.... just stuff~~~

hey hey.....here's guo qiang and max....haha.... another addition to their photo album?? *opps.. myra DID NOT tell me anything*..hahaaaaa...... well thanks for the treat!! and enjoy yourselves decorating it k.... xiang dang nian.... i used to share photoalbum with cy too........

oh well.... here's us..... hahaaa....totally fun and satisfied.... never seen such beeeeg crabs b4 phew...... another 2 kg on my tummy... oh well.... and this is no the end of MY weekkk.... OMC 庆功宴 was another feast..... TOTALLY sinful weekend.. yes yes.....will post up photos once they are here!!! oh ya..... i almost forgot...

Ta-daaaaa.... eugene~~~~ hahaaa... enjoying his feast and kept scolding me for suaning him the whole night.... hey.... you suan me the whole YEAR k....hhah....hey.... feel the stress?? *beams* hahahaahaaaaaa

Final yr student...

2007-08-23T03:39:00.000+08:00

hmm..... only week 3.. or it is 4 already?? haha...can't really keep track of time when you are spending 3/4 of your time playin PS!!! 2 cores and no GE.. WTH~~~~ what's up with my life??? haahahaaaa.... oh well.... Finally got my FOC photoS!~~ omg omg omg.... i look crazy in most of them..hahha siao char bo here~~~ hahaaaaa.....

Wahahahaaaa... me and shiqi on MR buaya~~~~~ hahaaaa..... ALL ready to FIGHT~~~~

My OG~~~ LUKA @ sentosa... not full attendance thou.. but really had fun at sentosa.... even cat fight.. yes yes..... LAo Char Bo RoX~

Our Banner~~~~ super man gong chu xi huo...hahaaaaa.... got super alot of details from the logs the flame even the little skull~~~~

Th pretty AGLS~~~~~ whahaaaa.... i am one of them..... *grinZ*

Yes... and my Bao bei OMC 0708~~~ Chou Chou FamilY from WOOHOoLand~~~~

Orientation WooHoo~~

2007-08-08T17:09:00.000+08:00

Was really really busy.... doing PA which totally drained my brainpower everyday.... and preparing for foc.... all the SP nite rehearsals, mass dance rehearsals, intro rehearsals, cluedo rehearsals cityhike planning...meetings...just for the 7 days.... and now all 7 days are over.... but i was really glad to be part of this!!!! WooHoo 0708.. before i "retire" i would really like to thank chenyuan and darrel for giving me a chance to be in omc as the ex-official, thank youweichou and andrea for being so understanding and helping us... and Lionel and Shiqi my CGL and AGL.....and also the log-os shiwei and chawa for all their hardwork and effort in different parts of the camp...lizhen and munyee for making everything so colourful and interesting even b4 camp starts... GOOD JOB CPS...adam, jiaying, yeongmin and junyi for all the effort and for waking up even earlier and sleeping even later... yanxuan for chreonographing such a sud dance... i still have 100 bucks woth you hahaaa....receipts with me~..Qiao'e for preparing nice meals... best in all camps wor.... my ah girl jiayin for being ever so cute...haha... and ah foo yes yes.... the "girl" next door...who lost her voice... and my dear ah ong...... for always understanding me and share supper with me...haha... not forgetting ah bear... my dear beast and last but not the least our stars.... raymond, jianming, basil, kee kee, and alvin.... OMC 0708... you all are the BEST!!!!!!!!

shocked

2007-04-22T01:39:00.000+08:00

i was bored... so roammed a little friendster.. and found an interesting webbie.. and tried playing with it and i got quite surprised..haha....

here's why...

i took photos of mine to match.. and i got a SHOCK~~~~

hahaaaaa oh well.. you all can go try too...hahaaaa......i was bored...

temptations

2007-04-10T18:44:00.000+08:00

hahaaa cannot resist the temptation to touch my lappy...hahaaa. sounds bian tai~~~ omg omg... oh well studying is boring... and nothing seems to get into my brain... sianz...so i got bored and picked up my phone to play... hah....

first up... my notice board...hah.. cute cards~~~

take a look at my caffine containers... my trusty coffee and green tea... i am so addicted... shoots.. but the coffee is too sweet today.. bleah....

and FINALLY.... my SOLE companion!!!! HAM HAM!!!!! omg.. look at her layers of fats around her tummy... hahaaaaa..... like owner like pet sia!!!

haha..... argghhhh.. time check.. 9 more days to D day....... chui~~~ and i am already falling back in my schedule.. chui liaoz~~~

back to studying :(

2007-04-08T17:43:00.000+08:00

I have finally finished Hana kimi before the exams... hahaa.. read the comic.. kinda different...oh well.. haha... everytime i watch this kinda ou xiang ju.. i will feel like a teenage girl ooogling at shuai guys..hahhaaa.. started off noticing "xiu yi" in the show cos i watched the jacky wu show.. then i realise wu zun is really cute.. cos of his defined features and NICE skin!! hahaaaa.... think he looks nice in the zuan shu tian shi MV last scene.. ooooooH..h.hahaa.. pq hua chi-ing le...haha.. oh well... he's from brunei leh...quite shocked..haha... oh well.. nice show to watch for relaxation... by fav character .. YU CI LANG~~~~ so cute... hugeeeee....hahaaa... oh well.. now it's all over...haha... still thinking abt it sometimes.. dreaming that i were ruixi..hahaaaa... *pukeZ* but her dressing style not bad.. suits me... haha OH NO..... Now... looking forward to watching bai se ju ta after exams... haa... always slow in TV programmes..haha.... oh well... so many things to do and still got exams haven study.. die...died...died-ed.....dead...dead-ed...hahaaaa....let's see:

my cluttered table of stress...haha... haiz.... jiayou jiayou....

1) biobiz assignment 4
2) Company law tutorial
3) 214 post test
4) marketing tut
5) tons of readings.. dead...

haiz... speaking of death.. just read that donut has passed on.. and what did cy say.. ".. then ham ham should be dying soon.." NOOOOOOOOOO... my ham ham is alive and stong k~~~ even thou its sleeping more often now... *gulps* and its utterly fat...haha just changed ham ham's saw dust today... and it seemed worried when it tried to find its stash of food under the sawdust..haha...relax la.. sure got food one... i wun let you go hungry k... :) haiz... didn't want to imagine how i will feel if ham ham were to leave me... haiz... life is so fragile...

Teachers vs Auditors

2007-04-06T19:02:00.000+08:00

Got this pic from auditorsinwhite again..haha....
haaaa..... suddenly i feel that my future can be summarised into just 1 sentence...hahaa.... hey.. that's worse than a teacher... at least they still "teach" other than the ticking..haha.... oh well... some pple just had to get paid for ticking lo... waa.. our ticks are so much more valuable...hahhaaaaaa... ok... crazy again... better get back to studying... Toodles..

Exams!!!

2007-04-06T01:40:00.000+08:00

just another 14 days to my first paper and another 21 days will the end!!!!! omg omg omg... and I HAVEN STARTED YET!!!! chui liaoz...hahaaaaa.... slacking and dun feel motivated to study again... why am i always like that *angry*... i need motivation, a sense of guilt or someone is monitor me... or else.. YOUTUBE~~~ you will be my best friend... *shugs* Sooooo.. in irder for me to study... i came up with a study schedule.... studying 6 chaps a DAY..... that's so unrealistic.. Shoots... haiz.. but also no more time.... *ponders*... diao.. then what am i doing NOW???? blog somemore... ARRRRGHHHH.... still got a business plan and presentation this week and a post test for bus comm next week and biobiz assignment submission on monday...and worse of all i haven prepare any of them yet!!! haiz.. WHAt are you doing PQ~~~ haiz.... oh well.... think about the exams~~~ think abt the after exam activities... final yr liao still so chui... haiz... jiayou manz

Funny Blog on Auditors

2007-03-30T11:55:00.000+08:00

haa..... just went to an interesting blog on auditors... http://auditorsinwhite.blogspot.com so funny~~~~ guess i should put something here JIC the rest can't access it.

haha.... the Title of this pic is: AUDIT GAVE A 1 GOLD RING and 2 DARK RINGS...haaaaa funny...... really feel like buying th customised tee from them...haha
nice quotes!! laughs....

what does it mean??

2007-03-04T17:51:00.000+08:00

Going crazy from rushing my tutorial for 205 and inadequate sleep from the whole week due to entre... feeling distracted and tired... then i got a call - Cy called to ask if he could watch a movie with jessica... it was just the two of them. She claims that they had nothing to do and she didn't feel like going home and asking me not to worry about them. My heart kinda sank... it's true that i know nothing will happen but which girlfriend in this world would let her boyfriend watch a movie alone with another girl and not feel anything about it?? I didn't want to join them. maybe he should have just rejected that offer... by calling me, it shows that he has the intention of watching the movie already isn't it? but what can i do? haiz... i don't wanna be sensitive or put too much pressure on the both of us. But somehow i just can't stop feeling weird about it... maybe i am just insecure and tired.... but somehow i wish she didn't do it..cos she is making me feel exactly how she is feeling towards bear now... although she tries to comfort me but hey... that irritating feeling will untimately be there.... after all these.. i will still have to smile... we are still friends don't worry... but now.. i just don;t know how to feel or react to what i feel now...

Happy New Year

2007-02-21T13:10:00.000+08:00

haha...happy new year~~~~ and oh well PEIQI is a beeeg girl now... 21 le~~~ hahaa.. sadly still haven gotten the house keys yet but heee....wanna thank everyone who came down to celebrate my birthday with me~~~ thanks for coming and thank you so much for the presents~~~ love them!!!! heeee.... will be posting some photos of the party soon when i get back to my laptop..haha... hope everyone had fun this new year... gambled a little heeee... won some $$.... not much but happy lo heee.... the hols so fast over le :( but oh wel... hols coming tooooo...heh heh... a very packed hols too with entre, canoeing, cny dinner and 214 outing..hahaaaa....packed..... oh well hahaaaa..... lazy liao....just went whosinwhoseroom.blogspot.com hahaaaa.. for the gossips in hall hahaaa.. not much updates thou..hahaaaa......juicy~~

Changed Skin~~

2007-01-17T21:49:00.000+08:00

whahaaaa... it has been soooooo long ever since i blogged... oh well.. haha... everytime i stop blogging i will start with a new skin..hahaaa.... the last one i tried with (beige with drawings) was horrendous... cannot even see my blogs cos you are supposed to press on a button and ITS MISSING~~~ oh well.... holidays are OVER~~~ haha.. fast-paced with so many things to handle... entrepreneurship, IHG, trainings, welfare stuff. Really wanna aplolgise to my fellow JCRCians and my sub-commer... due to entre i wasn't able to be able most of the time. Sooo thank you SO much for covering up for me... sad to say i actually anticipated this.. but in the beginning the things that i planned for were so different from my situation now.. *sighs* oh well enough said... i wanna SCREAM~~~ haha.. we got 1st for BADMINTON~~~ whahaaaaaa so happy~~~~ even thou i didn't play for the finals cos we've Already won so no need to play mixed and JR was injured so oh well... all my warm-up.... hahaa... WE WON~~~ haha... so JR and Hamon has to treat us Mac..haaaa.... Shuang~

ad more to add.... OMC PHOTO SHOOT..haha... both day and night shoot... night was at bikini bar with our sarongs.... day was at siloso beach.. so fun..haha.. preferred day shot cos more casual... but dunno why everytime in front of the camera also frozen shooots... oh well...haha anyway the OG groupings are out....lionel, Shiqi and me...hahaaa.... shoots... i smallest size... hahaaaaaa oh well... we are.... red indians~~~ haha.. weapon bow and arrow i think.. whahaaa.. shoots forgot name le.. Laka???

omc 07/08 JCRC ex-officials

Still in hols mode thou cos i didn't really feel the joy of having hols at ALLLL~~~~ shooots... suppose to be writing my cover letter now... haiz... oh well... guess i better finish it 1st b4 blogging again...heeee

it's OVERRrr

2006-11-28T22:09:00.000+08:00

YAY~~~~ exams are finally over~~~4 papers... all chui... congrats...hahaaa. worse is tax.. reliased my brain caapacity VERY small.. what happen sia... i totally blanked out during exams... then i panic... but maybe cos i didn't sleep the WHOLE night~~~ i went to bed at 230 and just laid there trying to sleep till 730 at 8am by alarm clock rang...dead... drank coffee b4 that still no used.. lkike very dazed... chui.... wanted to put up pictures taken on my study process... too bored..hahaa.. but dumb dumb be brought laptop home forget to bring power adaptor, then i play game until batt flat le then i realised~~~~~~ how dumb can i be sia... anyway.. decided to cake something todae.. browsed through the receipe bookin popular and took a photo of it~~~ hahaaha.. ans thanks to my trusty phone... i made brownie with choc topping~~~~ whahahaaaaa.... stealing intellectual property... oops anyway whe i was working on it.. the ingredient kinda startled me...why need SOUR cream?????? for both the brownie and the topping??? dun understand...but anyway i just follow.. cos if i got left over sourcream i can always bake another potato to eat with it~~~~~ hahahaaaa going to take photo of my masterpiece one it's cooled and cut...hahahaa lalaaaaa..... must enjoy these week.. cos starting next week.. my hols will be PACKED and i really mean PACKED~~~~ hahaha with entre, IH, OMC stuff and so many things to do.... come and think of it.. I HAVEN PREPARE FOR IH~~~~~~~~ shoooots..... plasters..cold spray... grrrr....must do b4 thailand trip~~~~ *busy* *busY*

3 DOWN 1 MORE TO GO

2006-11-23T21:31:00.000+08:00

PHEW.....exams... all uni exams are like taking a levels all over again... 1 subject is like 1 a levels..hahhaa... 201 is my last open book exam liao... next one TAXATIOn.... haiz... scary... got the appendix.. can only try to spot 1 qns from there.. that's all sian.... hahhaahha... this hols is gonna be a busy one... with so much to do and so little time... haiz... jiayou... gonna take a good rest before i embark on my taxation.. peiqi's brain is overloaded~~~~~

OMG OMG OMG

2006-11-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

oh my gooooodd....... exams in 2 DAYS~~~~~~~ so fast..... grrrr... stupid sem... no time to study one.... say what learn during the term no need to study just revise.. PI~ who remembers anything taught 10 weeks ago!!!!! Grrrr.... exams so near.. why mine start 16th CY start 24th!!!! Grr only 3 papers somemore... unfair.. forever better timtabel than me one~~~~~~ grrrr.... haiz... i should be studying but WHAT AM I DOING~~~ blogging and watch anime about bread somemroe!!!! OMG~~~~ worse..... hahahahaaaaa chui..... got my report back my 2 sleepless nights exchanged for 1 A+ and 1 B+ hahaaa... A+ nothing to say.. but B+~~~~~~~ sian~~~ oh well... i have to admit i did't put in as much effort la.. too sian le...hahaha.... FOREVER PROJECT.. NO LIFE~~~~~ eeew.... haiz... oh well let's go back to the horrendous REA diagrams lo~~

Tired

2006-11-09T03:20:00.000+08:00

finally my projects are OVER.... stupid chonghwa.. forever laughing at our group... but really feels like we forever doing project... 213- 2 reports, few presentations.. 201 1 report, 1 presentations... 202 2 reports, 1 presentation... AA305 2 presentations machiam take forever... wanna die le.. anyway tml is my last presentation le!!! *cheerS* wahahahaaaaa... 201 on SingTel.. hahah... the opening is done by eugene super lame...hahha.. oh well.. last one.. better go prepare abit more... hahaa... exams gonna start soon.. 16th to 27th for me... power pack 2 1/2 weeks... phew.. but i just can't seem to concentrate..haha.. as ALWAYS... watching anime.. reading comics.. shoooots.... this time no peggy to pace me le.... oh noooooooo haiz.... need to get rid of the stupid lappy... so Distracting!!!!!! arghhhhh hahhahaaaa.... last sat went marina square... Not to shop :( sadness.. go there dinner then buy present for ruitang..haha. anyway happy 22nd birhtdaY~~~~ hahaha his birthday 13th i think :) heeee... hope you like the shorts the boys got ya, sorry i couldn't make it on sat. But at marina cos peugeot carshow~~~~~~ got my peugeot 1007~~~~ hahahaaa.... Cy took the brochure for me... 206 cc for himself 1007 for me... still think the slide door very zai... but think think think also like not very practical.... dunno leh... no very nai kan... BUT if i got a car... haha i wun mind whether nai kan anot la.. whahahaaaaaa...... thinks of maintainence cost... sian diao..hahahahha... so just to show show the car..... hahaha..... better go back studying le.... Yakitate!! Japan~~~~~